(after Sylvia Plath)
These are the mind’s construction stones--
built, as if reliquary themselves.
I compare them to teeth,
infused in cigar, bold-boned,
dyed-in-wool, coffee-toned teeth.
They could be my grandfather’s—
row upon row
climbing along the
If I were historical I’d come armed
with scrub brushes and Lysol.
Instead these stones are transitional
and wind between their crevices
I awake and jump to find coffee, knocking you back an email
thank you note, reading: it was great to see you
in and out of your hat. You should always wear one. Does anyone
still wear a hat, drawls Elaine Stritch on “Company’s” original cast recording.
The subtext of this note: sorry I’m so difficult. Apparently still going
through puberty. At 40 culture of the unsaid, breeds, stay alive.
O to break loose from the confines of you-ness and me-ness. Oneness
our goal, time and my mood swings, the goalie. When you are in
me I say your name three times as if I say my own. As if I
say be with me always. Tyranny of the unsaid, the left behind
in yesterday’s slush-snow.
What’s the difference between you and a symphony? Between you and a concealed
weapon? Am I more of a player than a play for the love of drama? I don’t even know the difference between you and typical dramatic structures?
O just tell me, what’s in a name when each morning I awake to a different one for you?
Digby or Montgomery. Justin Cleave. Sprocket or Lorazepam Mike
(why not, then, Lorazepamela?) or Allaster
Rutledge which is ridiculous because you are swarthy Sicilian, not Scottish,
both are “S” places, or something other than the thing you
are which is Tony. Which is not only slang-short for Anthony but also the Antoinette Perry Awards. They give them for a good, live
performance, like Oscar. My Tony isn’t any more adjectival than I am
though it is also an adjective: fashionable among wealthy or stylish people, as in
La grenouille is a tony restaurant even though grenouille means frog
which isn’t a very tony thing for just folks like Tony to eat. Tony’d know
if Elaine Stritch won a Tony for “Company.” Not that awards other than you
mean anything. Afternoons like this I can’t remember
what QED stands for. Queen Elizabeth Demands. Quick n’ easy
dinners. Quiet electrical days. Quadrating elements demand. Quicksilver
effective disorder. Queen Elizabeth’s decolletage dictates, dines, diddles, doesn’t,
define, drums, or daggers, QuED QED QED QED.